Depression and parenting

[Nasa89]

My depression is getting worse. I don’t feel like being with my 12 months old DC and I don’t want to play/smile. I actually look forward to going to work because there I have time to eat, I can be quiet doing my work and don’t get constantly interrupted by a crying baby requesting something from me. I have realised today that I have a bit of resentment towards her because she sleeps very poorly and is demanding. But I also feel pity for her because she is so good of innocent, I’m starting to give her traumas and ruin her future just like my parents ruined me. But I cannot change myself. I cannot presend I’m happy and play along when I can’t. For the first time today I wished someone would have warned me than having a child when you have mental health problems is the worse you can do 😞

Hello, I have been there. Call your gp on Monday as it sounds like pnd. I never sorted it and so still suffer to this day. You’ve taken the first step today. I’m sure wiser people will soon be on to support you more x

She told me to take sertraline, which I tried but I kept forgetting so it messed up with my brain. I m afraid she is going to tell me there is nothing more she can do if can’t even do something as simple as taking a tablet a day

It can take a while to get into the routine of taking medication.
Are there anyways you could build it into your routine? I take mine at night so I have them next to my bedside light so they are the last thing i see.
You could also set a reminder /alarm on your phone - just ensure they are somewhere near your phone so you don't acknowledge the alarm but then don't take them.

Hi. Start your medication again and take it at the same time every single day. In the morning with a cup of tea or at bed before you brush your teeth.

Do it same time every day and it will become part of your normal.

Also the way you describe is normal when you are depressed.

Iv been there and am
Still there! I'm also on sertraline but also forget some doses and that probably doesn't help! Before lockdown I was going to get some hypnotherapy counselling but obviously that's out the window till god knows when! Iv no motivation and no joy in anything anymore. I too believe having a child while suffering from mental health problems is maybe not a great idea 🙈 I often wonder when I will ever feel ok, Iv had other issues these past few months aswell which has made life just unbearable 😓 xx