I am losing the plot today

[MozzchopsThirty]

Some of you will know what's been going on for me.
Redeployed back to ITU after 8 years out
The dcs have gone to live with my ex to keep them safe
I can't see my partner

I haven't slept well for weeks without tablets and even then it's a struggle

Last night my dead father came to me and asked if I was ready (I realise how bonkers this sounds) and that has totally freaked me out

I just want to sleep, for a long time, and pretend this isn't happening

It doesn’t sound bonkers. Your dad was obviously very supportive so it’s only natural that, during this stressful time, you dreamed about him checking if you were ready to face the challenges ahead.

You will be exhausted with stress and lack of sleep and tablets to help you sleep can give you weird dreams. I think we all just want to sleep and wake up and find this nightmare is over.

So sorry you have to go through all this alone to keep your loved ones safe