I can’t do it anymore

[Louise26x]

I don’t know who to turn to. I feel like everyone doesn’t give a shit about me.

I feel like I’m stood in a room shouting for help and my family are just watching me. I’m not coping well at all.

Iv begged Dh for support. He doesnt get it.

The dc are driving me insane and if wasn’t for my youngest I wouldn’t be here right now.

My sister FaceTimed me and kept saying how I shouldn’t be happy my oldest isn’t like me at her age. I told her I was like that because I had an awful childhood with our mum drinking and trying to kill herself weekly. I was the only one left at home and had to deal with it throughout my child and teen years.

She said I wasn’t sexually abused or beaten so I had a decent childhood because I was bought things.

I feel even more like shit

Why can’t I be normal.

Why can’t I enjoy my children.

Why can’t I be happy
Why can’t I be loved

I can feel myself spiralling.

My chest hurts and my head hurts

The kids need feeding but Dh isn’t doing it

I want to run Asay and take my youngest with me. Just me and her.

I want my mum. I want to be with my mum.

I can’t take much more

Have you had a chance to leave the house today?

I don’t have the energy to leave my bedroom

You need to get some help.
116123, give the Samaritans a call maybe?

Give your gp a call. They can support you by phone.

It sounds like you need someone to talk to but I just want to say that when you feel this way it’s important to remember that you won’t always feel like this. It will pass so don’t let it eat you up. Accept that you feel shit but also recognize it’s temporary. Your frame of mind is fluid. And I agree with above poster. Get some exercise and fresh air. It can only help.

It might be helpful to get this thread moved to the Relationships board OP. It sounds like you're in a lot of pain but just take baby steps for now, you won't resolve big issues overnight. Sending you a virtual handhold

When you feel like this, and I've been there, so I know it's hard, but you must FORCE yourself to get up and get moving. Just a brisk walk can make all the difference to mood and also how you sleep. The less active we are, the poorer the quality of sleep and the worse we are able to deal with difficult family issues.

I can't stress enough how vital it is that you MAKE yourself get up in the morning, have a hot shower, get dressed, have a cuppa or breakfast and get out of the house. It's so hard but you must FORCE yourself.

You can do this. 💐

Hello Louise26x, we are so terribly sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when one of our users feels this way we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

We very much hope things look a lot brighter for you soon Louise26x

I rang a doctor for help.

I wish I hadn’t bothered.

Apparently I just need to go for a run and meditate.

I understand how frustrated you must feel with.what your sister said. A case of other people have it worse so you can't feel how you feel.
Did you reach out to your mum?