I'm low, really low and my anxiety is at insane levels. I have been under cmht before and the GP has made the crisis service available to me if I need it.
I'm a single mum of two under 6, both have additional needs. Biggest especially is hard hard work. She is 5, doesn't sleep, is extremely routine driven, doesnt eat, v. Likely to receive an ASD diagnosis. Huge sensory problems. Youngest is 3.5 with global delay but although he is delayed I feel confident he's developing normally just delayed due well over 30 courses of antibiotics and illnesses in his first 2.5 years.
School have kept biggest in and we have a family worker however both feel I'm still not coping and have done a referral to MASH.
I'm so scared they are going to decide I'm not fit to look after them.
I know I'm really low and anxious and I have been lower before, the problem I have had is I have lost all my coping mechanisms due to the virus. I know I will find new ones but that isn't instant and in the mean time I'm powering on through. The kids feed off each other so I struggle with both together.
I feel like everyone is looking at me like I'm an awful mum and are watching me like a hawk because I'm a risk. I have never and would never hurt my children. They in all honesty give me the strength to keep going.
I'm so anxious and I have no idea how long any of this is meant to take.
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