I think I'm going to walk out on my toddlers

[SoTired12345]

Partner at work.
I'm exhausted and feel not suicidal but so empty.
I can't be a good mum to my babies and I feel like locking the door and walking

It's so tough with toddlers.

Can you just put the tv on for them tomorrow, will they sit and watch?
Don't put pressure on yourself to do more than the minimum.

If it's really bad then your partner needs to stay at home. Your mental health is important and needs to be given the same priority as if you were physically unwell.

Oh love, this is so hard, you're definitely not alone in feeling overwhelmed. Can you talk to your partner? Could they take a day or two of leave to give you a break? Could you call your GP for a chat and see if they can suggest anything to help?

I think I'm just going to walk now
They are both asleep.
They haven't done anything it's me I can't cope anymore

Please, please don't, it is beyond exhausting looking after toddlers, especially in the current circumstances, but no matter how awful you feel, they need their mummy. Even on your worst day I am sure you are there for them and love them which makes you a good mummy. Can you get a break when your partner is home? I'm so sorry you're feeling like this but it will get easier.

I love them so much. They are not the problem I just want to disappear

Please don't walk, they love you and need you. Call Samaritans - 116 123

Oh love... I felt like that when mine were little and it certainly wasn’t under these fucked up circumstances. Is someone making you feel unsafe?

Hey OP, hold on there. Call your partner home, you need them with you - or are they part of the problem? Call a friend. keep posting here x

Part of the problem

What time will your partner be home?

Can you tell us more about what's going on?

Are they good kids but still exhausting it is there something else going on?

Have you seen your GP for help?

Do you have a garden or are you stuck in a flat?

I'm in a flat and have garden envy!!

Also been awake since 3 as I woke up hot, with a cough & headache. So got a bit of a fright & couldn't resettle 🙄why are you awake?

Should be home about 7am uk.
I just feel worthless

You’re not worthless. You’re tired and depressed, but this will pass. How old are your little ones?

Oh, it can be really hard with toddlers.

Please don’t leave the house. If they are asleep, why not call you partner and ask him to come home as long as they aren’t part of the problem. Please keep posting here or contact a helpline for better advice for your situation.

Please believe that this will pass.

Parenting toddlers is hard at the best of times especially with a partner on shift work. Forgive yourself for these feelings, they are very human. Try to do everything you can to make your life easy today. Endless CBeebies and endless biscuits is okay at the moment! You will get normality back soon. Do they normally go to nursery?

Can you get yourself to somewhere you feel safe or most comfortable in the house? Are you in bed?

You're the opposite of worthless, OP. You're awesome. It's impossible with toddlers even at the best of times when you can go out. We all completely relate. I wish you could get some time off from it

Part of the problem

What is? Your partner?

Please let us know you're OK op. I felt like you did 2 days ago. I broke down. I begged my husband to stay home because I couldn't cope. I called the let's talk mental health service who were so brilliant. Then I called my gp. I start antidepressants today. Today is my new start.
The fog can lift for you too. It will be OK. Please keep talking here or to a helpline or your partner. You will get through this.

You say “U.K. time”. Are you overseas? Ex-pat Brit or local to where you are? Maybe you need to get a better support network if you can?

If you can give us more detail maybe MN can crowd source you some ideas?

Handholding here sweetheart.

It’s so tough.

Just remember you only need to get through a minute at a time and that everyone here supports you.

Can you make an appointment with your GP then sit down with a cup of sweet tea?

Sending you strength

You're not worthless. Are you overseas? (You mention UK time)
Is there a phone number you can call.for support?

How are you op? Did you manage to sleep at all?

I hope you're ok. Let the kids do whatever they want today. You look after you. Ring support services.

I’m wondering if it’s evening where OP is.

Hoping you’e ok op, been worrying about you. Please let us know that you’re ok