Had my medical review recently. But I'm feeling I've been dismissed. Background is I had a mental health crisis caused by stress at work. In several situations which were not at all severe by usual standards of trauma but I experienced them as traumatic, being trapped and powerless. I think they could have been classed as bullying. This came after a prolonged period of work related stress.
After a long time off work I resigned. now started a new job much better fit. Depression almost resolved. On AD. Had two lots of counselling IAPT/IESO and a work related one when I was first unwell. Still got emotional and physical symptoms which i know are consistent with C/PTSD. Raised this with GP when I wasn't getting better and some of my reactions didn't fit standard depression/anxiety. She said this wasn't PTSD without asking if I had any other trauma experiences - car accident I had two months before i imploded and two years before a close family member witnessed an accident in which a person died and they were a near-miss.
Now read Pete Walker and what he describes I have. I guess the trouble is I can function, I'm coherent but that doesn't stop me feeling like every trauma I have every experienced is stacking up and there are situations I can't go back into. I'm stuck. When I get triggered the fear and freeze response shakes me to the core and I have no specific idea of what the triggers are. I want to move forward. I want to go back to iapt/IESO and I think the new employer has an employee assistance program. Will they hear me. Last time I spoke to GP she said 'i don't know your situation' then that my test results didn't show anything to carry on as I am. That trust is broken. This is the person I broke down with not so long ago because I couldn't cope. I feel betrayed again. I didn't even know that until I just wrote it down. But if I ask for help again I need whoever it is to support me. Anyone else felt the same? What did you do?