The urge to harm myself has reared itself a few times over the last few weeks.
I'm actually coping really well with the pandemic, as long as I don't have to go to the shop because I'm freaked out to go alone for personal reasons.
But this year was meant to be 'my year's. I've put a lot of energy effort time spoons you name it, into getting myself a teeny bit of work and some volunteering which I was getting into the swing of. I've had a horrendous decade and a bit.
Despite how very calm I am about the situation, I have lost my sense of self worth (which was small but at least there for a few months).
This is what is triggering it, this and my health problems flaring because I am unable to be as I need to be and so where I need to etc to keep on top of things.
I think others are probably in full swing panic and despair where as I'm a bit like a millpond.
Things to look out for in your friends and family which you might not think to: drastic cutting/ shaving of their hair or other huge changes to their personal image particularly regarding hair, self tattooing or piercing, biting, drastic binge eating or starving of themselves, pulling hair (any kind) out, also sabotaging things which are important to them.
I'm only listing these because they're things I do which aren't obvious if you aren't a doctor or specialist. It's helpful for me if people notice and realise why I've done something as I don't always have control over it.