Sorry for posting but I really need to talk about this especially due to lack of socialising during lockdown. I have a history of mental health issues and came off all medication due to pregnancy and breastfeeding, the medication i was on is incompatible with both. Ive been an insomnia since i can remember and was previously on three different prescribed medications for my sleeping issues (Melatonin 6mg, Promethazine 50mg and Temazepam 20mg) which helped. My daughter is now 11 weeks old and starting to sleep a little bit better (she has had colic) however i simply cannot sleep. I lie awake with racing thoughts about horrible things happening to my little girl and i cant get the intrusive thoughts to subside causing me to be tearful. I dont associate my bed with rest anymore tbh. Im at a loss as we are on lockdown and when I phoned my psychiatrists receptionist she told me to wait for a letter which has not came. Im apprehensive about speaking to a GP when we have been advised to only contact should it be absolutely necessary. I feel suicidal again with it and my relationship with my husband is cracking as he goes to work at 5am and thats when i finally start to drift off and my daughter begins to wake with me having no support available to allow me to rest. I have good sleep hygiene. Scared to take over the counter sleep aids due to my daughter and how sedating they can be. Any advice?