My intrusive thoughts are constant and really not helpful calling me all sorts of really horrid names, they started on Saturday and won't let up. I'm really paranoid don't believe I should speak to anyone because I get it wrong. I had an online session with my counsellor today who I trust and who really understands me, the intrusive thoughts are telling me I said the wrong things.
I'm stopping contacting friends, I should have been on an online support group tonight but just couldn't face it.
I've worked so hard to gain my independence over the last 18 months and now because of bloody Coronavirus I'm losing that having to rely on my ex because I'm in an at risk group. It had taken me so long to be able to shop independently.
The OCD is also spiralling out of control, it doesn't matter how much I clean it won't be good enough.
I'm struggling and I hate myself.