Myself and none of my family currently have symptoms but I’m not physically able to get myself into work with my anxiety, I made it into one shift out of five last week and I took an hour long panic attack where I couldn’t see or hear anything other than white noise.
I’m petrified of catching CV not even for my own sake but for high risk family members and the general public. For me to unknowingly be the cause of someone else’s death feels overwhelming and like it’s strangling me.
I came off of social media and Mumsnet for a few days and felt somewhat more at ease but again I couldn’t make it to the supermarket without wanting to scratch my skin off my full body. Back on Mumsnet this morning and some of the posters are so straight up and determined UK deathtolls will replicate Italy’s and while we do not have as densely populated areas so social distancing, for the most part, is more achievable the dread and fear returned.
My works still open and unlikely to close at this rate, working from home seems like a pipe dream and dependants leave (I’m too scared to leave DD with her usual babysitter as he cares for the elderly and high risk in the family) is completely unpaid. Should I request a mental health Sickline from the dr?
I really will need to come off of all news and social media outlets for my own sake too. I’ll go into this quarantine 25 and leave it looking 60.