DISCLAIMER: I am not in any way condoning public gatherings during the current crisis. I do realise the enormous sacrifices being made by public health workers for which I am grateful. I also realise that incomparably greater sacrifices were made by those in the world wars. I also realise that there are categories of people for whom the situation is worse than it is for me, including those living in care homes, looking after vulnerable individuals and so on.
I have depression. I already feel very depressed after a couple of days with minimal going out. I am sleeping as much as possible as it is better than being awake and I can't read or hear anything that will upset me while I'm asleep. I realise this situation may go on for very much longer. I am concerned that my mental health will get so bad due to isolation that I will never recover. I am beginning to have black and negative thoughts about everyone including the people competitively almost gleefully posting on here about how it will go on for months and years. In my father moments I wonder if I'd be better off dead as I hate this life and I hate how awful the world is and it seem like there hasn't been any good news for years and there is just worry, depression and decline ahead. I hate how angry with people I feel all the time. I sometimes feel I hate everyone and everything. That's all.