Flashbacks won't stop, don't feel safe, can't bear this pain

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I just want to feel safe but I can't. Everything is triggering more flashbacks, even the safe memories I usually access when things are bad are setting things off because I was trying to use them to protect myself the last time something traumatic happened to me and now they trigger even more flashbacks instead of making me feel safe.

I've already spoken to Samaritans tonight and I can't go to a&e because that place features in my flashbacks so it will make things worse for me.

Even my few memories of feeling safe and my imaginary safe places have been taken away from me and I have nothing left.

I feel so alone.

Hi do you have some breathing exercises you can do? Also something very distracting like a hard puzzle you need to concentrate on. I will Google one for you if you don't have one.

Here's a few I found www.goodhousekeeping.com/life/entertainment/g3751/viral-brain-teasers/

Thanks

I sometimes find imaging a colour helps to calm my mind (I go for black!). Sounds bizarre but it really does shut my mind down, could be worth trying?

Sudoku is also good, or a jigsaw puzzle app.