I don't know what to do anymore I feel like I don't know myself

[jcraven25]

After having my second child so close to my first I had postpartum depression that turned into depression like the kind where sometimes you just feel anything even though everything around you is perfect am I just fucked up or does anyone else go through this?!
I have the best husband and children I could ask for but when I'm at my all time low I want to lock myself in the bathroom and shower for an hour and just be alone

I'm tired of this I'm tired of it controlling me I have taken anti depressants but it's getting worse now I'm developing anxiety and a lot of stress for no reason can I just say fuck everything right now 🙄

Please if you have or are going though this what helps you?!

How old are your children? I think you need to cut yourself some slack, having young kids is hard. And relentless at times too.

I wrote off the first 18 months of my 2nd child's life because I thought it was normal to feel so exhausted and down all the time. Turns out I had all sorts of vitamin deficiencies so maybe get your bloods checked, esp if breastfeeding.

Sounds so trite but be kind to yourself. This is a really challenging time in life, and all social media will tell you it should be bliss.

Not much help I know but didn't want to not reply ; I can totally empathise with how you're feeling.

My oldest daughter is 2 and my other daughter is 10 months I do work full time.
I found out today that I have a hormone imbalance that I have to get tested for.
These past few months have hit me the hardest I always feel over emotional or not emotional enough and it just doesn't feel like me
I can be a very fun bubbly person but when it hits I just want to stay home