My son sleeps through the night now but I spend the night crying, tossing and turning, worrying, checking on him.
I had to leave work this week sick, as felt the overwhelming need to scream. I just couldn't cope being there at all.
I have chronic pain and constantly think my family would be better off without me. I just cry and feel down, but I know they wouldn't survive without my income so I just keep going.
I am so tired and in pain all the time.
Some days I wake up full of energy and do loads for my son to make up for being so useless but then that night or the next day I am so drained I can barely move.
He watches too much TV. I do activities but it's hard. He hates everyone but me and I work evenings so he is only used to me. He only knows me and cries whenever we are apart and every time I go to work.
I don't have any life outside of working and being a mum but when any one tries to do things with me I can't leave my son, it's like I'm as bad as him at being apart.
My brains a mess and no idea what to say to my Dr? I don't know if I can even be helped? Anyone else been through anything like this?