Depression and Anxiety really taken hold

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Hi all.

My depression and anxiety have really taken hold this month.
I try to go to the gym to keep on top of it and stay off anti depressants, but this month, work has been hard and I’ve skipped the gym a few times. As a result, I’ve started having really negative thoughts. I can’t shake the feelings:
That people don’t like me.
That people like me, but don’t like my husband, so therefore don’t want to spend time with me (for clarity, there’s no reason why people wouldn’t like my husband, he’s not abusive, controlling, we earn the same and he helps around the house and he a very social person).
That it would be easier to move back to my hometown than continue to live in the city I currently live in.
That any friends I have, find it a chore to socialise with me.
That it’s difficult to make new friends and anyone who would want to be my friend would only want to be so out of pity.

I am really struggling to shake these thoughts, just looking for some advice and maybe a “pull yourself together”. Is there anything more I could be doing to help myself here? Has anyone else been in the same position?

Can you write those thoughts down OP and challenge them? For example:

Everyone at work hates me.

'Janice made me a cup of tea today. Bob said that I'd done a good job and Babs on reception said she liked my new top.

People are being kind and reaching out so they can't all hate me.'

Be kind to yourself OP. It's ok to miss the gym now and again. It's ok to have the odd blip and think everyone's against you.

Sounds like you're doing really well. It's not easy getting to the gym at all when you feel depressed or anxious. You have a lot of self awareness, you can see that this is your anxiety speaking rather than reality.

Everyone goes through 'moments' where they think everyone has it in for them or nothing is every going to work out. Everyone feels like that from time to time, it's not just you and you're not alone.

ADs aren't a bad thing OP and perhaps you should reconsider as they may help you. Depression and anxiety aren't signs of weakness and often we need help and support to get better.

Thanks for your reply, really great to hear some kind words.

It's no problem. I'm glad to help. Please post if you need further support.