For a bit of back ground.
I was with my ex husband for 10 years. He was both physically and emotionally/mentally abusive.
I finally left him 4 years ago after he assaulted me and broke my nose. I realised I couldn't bring my dd up thinking this was an acceptable way to be treated. I reported him to the police but he claimed it was self defence and it came down to my word against his so the cps couldn't press charges.
Since then I have been suffering with depression and anxiety.
I am in a new relationship. We have been together just over two years. We don't live together yet and he is amazing, the polar opposite to my ex.
I just can't get over my insecurities and jealousy that my ex drummed into me. I have been on numerous different meds and tried CBT but just can't seem to shift this cloud and feeling of worthlessness.
I just need to know I'm not alone and if anyone can suggest any help or ways to ease it I'm open to suggestions.