I originally posted this in the staffroom but I guess it’s actually more suited to here. I would be grateful of any advice or experience as I’m feeling quite panicky today.
So I’m not really sure where to start or whether this is the best place for this post. I’ve been back at work just over a year (my child is 20months and I went back quite early which didn’t help I don’t think). I love teaching, not all the power plays but the actual teaching etc I love, but I feel like that has been completely leeched away. I had a really difficult start to being a mum, struggled with breastfeeding but that became easier and a lovely bit slightly pushy MiL probably didn’t help at the time. Sorry, I’m rambling. But my problem is two parts really, work is insanely busy. I’m part time but the emotional load is more like full time. Plus I have so many students who need help and confide in me which is seriously highlighting how much I’m neglecting my mental health. In addition to this I am starting to wonder if I have PNA. A lot of those anxiety symptoms and feelings of early guilt haven’t gone. I have intrusive thoughts almost everyday and if my child is in nursery or not with me and I see someone else with theirs I feel horribly guilty and it has reduced me to tears.
Sorry, this is a bit of a block but I’m coming to the conclusion that I really should go and see a GP. I hate the idea of the stigma (ridiculous because I’m always telling students that shouldn’t be a thing) attached to it but I’m not coping. Any advice of what to do?