Alone

[BettBoo]

I’m not normally the dramatic type, if anything I’ve been so empty recently I can’t even muster a reaction to most things. My posts on Facebook consist of jokes, the odd political opinion and sharing photos of the kids. That’s about it. I don’t know what came over me but today I posted that I felt like i was on the verge of a mental breakdown and couldn’t take anymore (this is true). I think I just wanted someone to reach out to me, no one really seems to care if I’m ok or not and today I suppose has proved me right. Not a single person has reached out or commented. I am mortified I posted this I feel embarrassed but at the same time I feel sad.

I used to think about suicide and be scared, I used to think how scary it must be having made the decision and there is no going back. Now I honestly think it would be euphoric to know it was almost over.

Anyway I don’t know why I posted this, I just want to feel like I’m telling someone.

Hi, I hear you Bettboo, sorry you feel uncared for, people can be very self absorbed, it's part of human nature as it is to feel alone. I hope things improve for you.

Thank you for replying

I know how you feel! I told my friends I felt alone and that I was really struggling and they told me not to think about it and I would feel better... then no more replies!

I'm sorry you feel like this. You aren't alone. There's many of us who struggle with our mental health and it's made so much worse by the fact that we aren't brought up to express it openly. I hope you're as ok as can be x

@BettBoo I'm thinking about you today and, as it has been a while since you last posted, wondering if you're managing OK?

You hoped that Facebook might be an effective way to confide in people you know about how desperate you've been feeling, and it seems like that actually made you feel worse. Please consider making an urgent appointment with your GP and try to discuss your concerns and difficulties there. It can be helpful to make a list of some of the ways you notice your mental and emotional health is affected, and use that as an aide memoire to give you the confidence to raise the issues.

Unfortunately, the framework of social media can often diminish the seriousness of posts from people who are genuinely suffering.