Pnd how did you make it stop?

[Wallowinginfilth]

I've been wondering whether or not to write this thread for quite a while.

Has anyone had depression where they don't feel sad just numb and lazy? Hours go by and I don't do anything. My house is a mess, I don't go to bed even when I'm knackered. I only feel rage or indifference to my partner most of the time. I am far too impatient/unsympathetic with my toddler. I cry at random (not sure why). I shovel food down my neck all day long, not paying attention to what I'm doing.

I'm fed up of being a lazy, crap mum with a messy house. My baby is 10 months, I'm back at work, when am I going to feel better?

Other info that might be relevant. My baby used to be a good sleeper, but has been waking a lot since before Christmas. I'm in a badly paid job and we always seem to be running out of money (dp has a good job but our mortgage and food bills take all our money). My toddler's behaviour went downhill after the baby was born, got better for a while, and is bad again now. Also my dp has been depressed/anxious for a long time now and has is very highly strung- which I have less and less sympathy for as time goes on (I feel like a terrible person for this but I really feel like my capacity for histrionics is full with the kids).

So, for people who have felt like this and got over it what did you do? My mum says it just takes time, but I'm hoping for a jump start.

Any tips?

I would say start taking care of yourself. Get out and get some exercise, sun and fresh air. Take a bath, etc. Do things that make you feel good (not eating junk!). Eat healthy. Once you feel better about yourself start tackling the messy house.

Thanks for answering Mamabear12. Good suggestions. I've been talking it over with dp and I think we need to make more concrete plans at the weekends. We both have a tendency to question every decision we make and it's getting to the point where we often do nothing.

I definitely need to get out more and do more for myself and the kids. Yesterday we went out to lunch the toddler was literally kicking and screaming (and pulling my hair) because he didn't want to go, he wanted to watch tv all day . But he actually loved it when we got out. I feel like were passing our listlessness on to him and that's got to stop.