So fucking lonely

[mypoorfurbaby]

Just that really.
Feeling sorry for myself.

I've always been that person who ends up being forgotten or sidelined, always on the edge.

I though I had a best friend, someone I could call at anytime about anything but she slept with my husband and lied about if for years.

My trust in other women is non existent so I feel like I can't reach out when I need to.

How do you get to the point where you don't feel like a burden when you phone people for a chat? Even my siblings don't want to talk, I can hear it in their voices, my BIL is happy to talk but that's about it.

I had to put a pet down this week - out of the blue, people 'liked' the social media post but only 2 contacted me directly

I miss having a best friend even if it was bullshit. I'm that low I would even talk to her again, I miss it that much

I'm sorry you're in such a lonely place. And my heart truly goes out to you having to put your pet down this week.
Your situation with your friend and your ex sounds awful. You have a lot of reasons to never trust anyone! When you feel like you can't trust anyone this leads to even more isolation.
You're not alone and you're not a burden.
To form better friendships and connections with people, Maybe try something new? A new hobby or class? Take a trip?
Sometimes in being on your own there is power and self sufficiency. And peace!
It's ok and normal to have times like this but I'm sure it will pass and someone new will pop in your life who is trustworthy and a good friend. It's 2020 you can find like minded people so easily... just be brave enough to introduce yourself ❤️🌻

Don’t go back to your shitty liar of a friend who slept with your husband, she sounds completely toxic. You need a loyal, kind friend.

You sound like you are suffering with low self esteem, which given the circumstances is not surprising.

Like the other poster said, try and meet people via hobbies.

If the pet that passed away was a dog, maybe rescue another, as dog walking is a great way to meet people.

I am sorry you had to have your pet put to sleep, I hope you are okay.

Good relationship advice on YouTube :
Susan Winter
Marisa Peer
Matthew Hussey

You are better off without toxic people in your life. Be brave, try something new, reinvent yourself.

Start loving yourself more.💐