I'm at the end of my capabilities. I'm probably going to go on and on and it will be like a pity party - when really I have everything.
I have really bad anxiety over illness and did suffer with Emetophobia. Did/do ? I don't know anymore.
I was really ill at the beginning of the week with sickness and ended up hospitalised. I came home Wednesday. I coped okay with the being sick and controlled my anxiety and fear of my daughters getting sick or my DP.
DP was sick this morning, really bad just like me and is still in bed. I am petrified of my little girls being that ill too. I feel so out of control and that I can't cope with anything at all.
I want to run and hide or just close my eyes and not wake up.
I know I sound dramatic but the anxiety is so strong.
My mum offered to have my DD's over night as she could see I wasn't coping. I agreed and they are there. I am terrified of tomorrow night with them at home and I feel tremendous guilt and disappointment that I am unable to cope.
I can't cope with anything, what is wrong with me?
I have not slept well since I was ill at the beginning of the week and hardly eaten. I really don't know what to do with myself at all.
I'm at home sat on the stairs just wanting to cry or go out the front door, walk and not stop.
DP is asleep and I'm just desperate to feel something other than this anxiety.
I just want some one to tell me it will be okay.
I just want to not feel these feelings.