Health anxiety is ruining my life

[gloominbloom]

I have an ache in my calf I've convinced myself is a blood clot, I can feel it all the time, because I'm thinking about it all the time.

I drove for two days solid and its ached for the next two days, its not a bad pain and it goes away when I forget about it, so I KNOW it's fine and I have a literal cause. But why can't I stop panicking about it, my chest is heavy and I just cry. I can't sleep incase it is and I'm over thinking.

I've had multiple reassurances from my parter I'm okay and I know he means it but I don't believe him, it's almost like this happens too often I get anxious about something new and he reassures me but now if there was something serious he'd brush over it. Then I think this is the one, that isn't taken seriously and it's real. It's like the boy who cried wolf but I genuinely feel it every time.

I'm so tired of being scared. I know it's health anxiety, it isn't real, but I can't convince myself for long enough for it to stop or to sleep

I have health anxiety op, and I know exactly how you feel. Do you have anything going on in your life stress wise?

Self-refer to IAPT for cognitive behavioural therapy if you think it’s significantly affecting your life. Or try the Overcoming Health Anxiety book.

Would you feel better if a doctor checked it?

Sorry for the garbled post. I don't have anything particularly stressful going on I'm just always on the go, I can't switch off at the minute and rest my mind. I spoke to the local NHS cbt and their wait list is ginormous and I'm struggling to find private therapists round here, not that I could afford it.

I probably would feel better but I feel so stupid and embarrassed because I know I'm wasting their time, and if something was to happen I wouldn't be taken seriously. Its all just really rearing its head at the moment

I've got endometriosis so I have to tricycle my contraceptive pill or I end up in a lot of pain. I feel sick and can't take it because its linked with increased risk of blood clots.

I know I'm doing myself harm by trying to "protect" myself. I'm so so fed up I feel crazy

Couldn't you use the mini pill? I don't have any periods 🤞 I used to get really bad pregnancy paranoia, I recently convinced myself that I had a brain tumour when I actually needed a new prescription in my glasses!