I saw my mum struggle with depression all through my childhood, as a teen and younger adult I was frustrated by it, I’m a totally different personality and all I could think was just pull yourself together and get on with it. I think my history with my mum is clouding my thinking but I think I need to admit to myself that I’m not right and could probably do with some help but where do you even start?!
I have no motivation to do anything, but then I feel guilty for that so compensate with the children and we go on a day out, I then get frustrated if they play up because I’ve made the effort.
I’m constantly going over in my head any interactions I’ve had with people and worrying about what they’ve thought about me or if I’ve said the wrong thing, particularly if it’s someone new.
I’ve got a constant feeling of anxiety for no reason, almost like I’ve forgotten something.
And most of the time I just feel sad, again for no particular reason.
I feel embarrassed about going to my GP because I feel like I should be able to pull myself together and I’ve no reason to feel this way, plus how do you even find the words?