I've had clinical depression, bpd and anxiety for over 10 years. I manage to function for the sake of my kids but otherwise it's pretty crippling. My parter picks up a lot of the slack but when I'm alone during the day with my two boys I go into mum autopilot and do what needs to be done.
My issue is that I'm worried I may not be taken seriously if I applied for pip as:
- I'm able to be a stay at home mum, look after them, take them out etc.
- I come across as extremely bubbly and not at all depressed. It's something that's developed over the years due to many reasons such as not wanting to make people uncomfortable over me feeling like shit. My GP even commented at one point that I seem alright.. I'm really not. If it wasn't for my kids I wouldn't be able get out of bed.
One other worry is that they'll hear all I have to say and think unable to look after my kids due to how I feel and get social services involved (which has nearly happened when I've reached out for help from other services. No one seems to believe I can feel awful and suicidal but be able to put it to one side to look after them).
Sorry, this post is a bit long winded and not very to the point but do you think there's any point in me applying for pip? And will they report me to social services for feeling awful 24/7 whilst being responsible for two kids?