Wondering if anyone has any experience with this. I was diagnosed with bipolar two years ago.
A few months ago I started getting intense anger and rage, which lasted a good few weeks. I started hallucinating as well. Just things from the corner of my eye. I was told it was just anxiety and lack of sleep. Eventually it subsided and I’ve been ok.
Now in the past week it’s come back with a vengence. I either sleep too much or very little. My anger and rage are even worse and my hallucinations have gotten worse. It’s no longer from the corner of my eye, but right in front of my face. The other day I saw what I thought were worms climbing on the walls. Sometimes I see the outline of a person just walking straight past me. I’ve become isolated and I have an intense feeling that everyone around me are out to cause me harm and upset and I just want to hide away from it all. I want to delete all forms of contact with everyone, even family as I think their intentions are not what they make out to be. I don’t feel like I’m imaging it. It feels very real to me, and I’m getting quite upset about it
I don’t know what I’m wanting from this post, just a bit reassurance I suppose, but my trust has completely gone out the window and I want to just cut myself off from the world
Is this part of my bipolar disorder? I feel like I might be losing it, but at the same time it feels very real to me
Currently on lamotrigine and lithium, but I want to come off that too as it feels like poison. I honestly could just burst into tears