Afternoon 😊
I hope you took my lazy arse to the gym with you!?!
I’m sorry you weren’t able to be with your DC on their birthday...are they twins?
My EX has 3 brothers / all 4 birthdays in the same week- all 4 years apart , so could have been same day. We used to joke bonfire night was the only night his Dad got his leg over and only every 4 years 🤣
I’m sorry you’ve had such incredible struggles. There are a LOT of people on MN who have - you’re far from alone. I can’t begin to imagine how difficult it is for you, but one thing I know FOR SURE is that your children would not be better off without you. There are (again) a significant number of posters on MN who lost parents to suicide and NEVER in all the years I’ve been here (well over a decade) have I ever heard them say anything other than they wish they were still here.
Your kids love you, your their Mum - even if other people help to care for them YOU are their Mum & they love YOU 💕
I have lost all hope that anything will help me. I know people will think pull yourself together and all that, I have tried so hard
You’ve probably heard it’s million times, but where there’s life, there’s hope. There’s always hope. 🌷We are a mad bunch but we are here when you need others to help you find your hope again and despite it being ‘just the Internet’ people really do care. Truly.
It is sunny here today - is it there?
I’m just going to walk down into the village and have a coffee on the local church run cafe. It’s a ‘proper’ Café, but they are all volunteers (bar the manager). It has a pretty little garden and it’s a nice place to sit outside (scarf, gloves & body fat will keep me warm enough despite the fact it’s damn cold out! ).
I’ll check in from there in a bit to see what you’re up to this afternoon x