I feel so rubbish today

[withgraceinmyheart]

I’ve been having treatment for poor mental health, on and off for the last 15 years. Had a breakthrough about a year ago when I finally got the right diagnosis. I’ve done lots of work identifying my triggers and working on ways to deal with them.

I’m doing so much better now. But some days, like today, I just feel awful. Just can’t function or stop crying. Can’t work out what’s specifically triggered it, maybe a build up of lots of things, but just normal life stuff.

Is it normal to still have bad days, even when treatment is working generally? Or is a sign that I still don’t have the right diagnosis or should be on medication?

I think it's normal. Take the day to self care and not dwell on difficulties or self judge / you've come a long way , you have the tools and you are doing better. It's ok to feel sad it's ok to dip down it doesn't mean you'll stay there. Take actions to actively manage your emotions and thoughts. Sometimes just recognising the feelings mean you can then manage them - opposite emotion, distraction, breathing, mindfulness etc
Let me know how you get on x

Thank you. My dh is home so I took a break from the kids and wrapped myself in a duvet for a bit. May not be the best self care but it worked.

It’s so frustrating when all I want to do is enjoy my life and I have days like today when I literally just can’t.

I didn’t used to mind because I always felt this way, but now having better days the bad days are more obvious.

Well it's good that you had a break and a rest in your duvet!
It's ok I understand it's frustrating but I think there are bad days that as you say feel bad because a) they seem more intense than they should and b) it's hard to tolerate when you have felt better