I don’t know where to turn for help

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Hello,
Shortly after Christmas my husband ended our marriage due to my mental health problems. He says he doesn’t love me although he does like me and wants to stay in the home for now but in different rooms, I assume to see the children.
As a result my mental health problems have spiralled. I’ve been in regular contact with my GP. They referred me to the primary mental health team who put me on a 4 month waiting list for counselling and also referred me to the in home crisis team as I’d been having thoughts of suicide. The in home crisis team dismissed me after their first visit as I explained that despite the very frequent thoughts of suicide I have no intention to act on anything as my children need their mother and although I have self harmed I’ve only caused very minor injuries by way of a coping mechanism.
So now I’ve been left. I’m on a low dose of Sertraline as I have been since before the crisis started. My GP doesn’t want to change this. I have no therapy in place and no family or friends for support. Is there anywhere I can turn? I’m so frightened and every day seems impossible right now. I’ve done so many google searches but not come up with anything so I thought I’d ask here if anyone knows of anywhere I can go for support.
Thanks

I’m so sorry that’s come out as such a mess without paragraphs or anything.

Maybe call the Smaritans? It may sound daft but they will listen if you need to talk. Also is there a Relate counselling service near you that you can contact? Relate offers a lot of help especially with relationship breakdowns. I always thought Relate were more there to help you work on a relationship with problems but they are so much more than that. Relate can offer low cost sessions too as they base it on your earnings.
Good luck and sending lots of healing energy your way.

Thank you for your reply Banana.

I’ve tried the Samaritans a few times now at my lowest points. Unfortunately I haven’t managed to get through to anyone. I was on hold for a long time and the wait just made things worse.

I will contact Relate though. Their website suggests that fees start at around £40 ph which is money I’m anxious about spending right now but perhaps if they work on a sliding scale I may be able to sort something out.

I really appreciate you taking the time to reply to me.

Hello there the crisis team are meant to stay with you and put you in touch with a psychiatrist I had the crisis team involved for not for the same circumstances and I did have suicidal thoughts but didn't self harm 3 weeks later they still see me every day I would get back on to them they are meant to help you... I hope you feel better soon 💕

Also on the nhs site have a look at every mind matters there is lots of help on there xx

It would be worth seeing if there’s a branch of MIND near you as they offer support etc. They also have contacts via their website.

Hi there,

The crisis team who visited me seem only concerned about an immediate suicide risk. They wanted to put in place a 72hr plan to “keep me safe” but I said it wasn’t needed because although I was overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts I felt I wouldn’t act on them. As a result they couldn’t offer me anything further and I was discharged from their care.
The thoughts are overwhelming and frightening but nobody seems to be able to offer anything support.
I’ve looked up Mind but the nearest seems to be around 20 miles away and I’m too anxious to use public transport right now. Thanks for the suggestion though.

Does your GP know you're battling suicidal thoughts?

I cope are brilliant. X

Hi there, yes I’ve been open with my GP about my thoughts.

I will look up I cope. Thank you

It seems strange that your GP doesn't want to change or up your medication when you are in need of more help than before.

Have you got any support from friends or family?

Her reasoning is that in the short term changing my medication can make things harder. I think it’s one of the usual side effects? She wants me to be more stable before adjusting anything. I may ask again at my appointment next week because I feel the need to be doing something to get better.

You can email Samaritans. [email protected]

Also elefriends.org.uk

www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Resources/Looking-After-Yourself

Do ask again. I'm sorry you're feeling so terrible.