I pull hair out of my eyebrows - trichotillomania?

[clatow23]

I pull out hair from my eyebrowside - some days I don't pull as much, other days I can't stop pulling. At the time of pulling it feels good, then I'll catch site of bald patches in my eyebrows in the mirror and feel horrible. I'll think I will stop this time and then catch myself doing it again without realising. I don't know if I'm genetically predisposed to it as my mum has no eyebrows due to pulling herself. She suffers from anxiety, which I also do myself :( I find it adds to my anxiety as I think it's the first thing people notice about me

Bit of a background about me, I suffer social anxiety as far back as I can remember in primary school. I have had a course of CBT for that recently but whether it was the therapist or me, it's not helped me feel any different. I find my anxiety is a lot worse around people I know which doesn't make it easy to get a job with people I would see day in day out
I was bullied all the way through school for body odour :( Once incident I remember being at the park with a friend and a girl followed me home ( I had my little westie with me), she punched me in my lip. When we got the police involved, she egged my bedroom window. I remember people in changing rooms spraying me :( For that reason I'm not confident at all around anyone my age
I do a lot of worrying about dying. Had the fear since a child but been worse since my mum had a health scare. I wish at times I'd not been born so I didn't have to worry about it. My worry is making families life a misery, they feel they have to eat in private so in don't have a go at them for health reasons

I'm also experiencing a lot of worry about my age at the moment and how I'm no closer to having a boyfriend due to my social anxiety, and I have the biological clock to worry about (I'm 30 this year) :(

im sorry youre having anxiety and compulsions. I used to pull my hair out too. Its more common than you might think. I managed to stop it though, but I kind of had to replace it with something else. It takes a lot of determination to stop, but hair pulling is defintely one to try and stop as its one you will regret later. I know it probably sounds silly, but If im going through a stage where im getting obsessive stims like this, i use that textured nail polish, and stroke it. Or could you pluck out different hair such as leg hair or other body hair. Trying to swap it for another thing is easier than stopping completely.

Do you have a diagnosis or anything to help you access more support? These things are super common with stuff like aspergers

Hi, the only diagnosis I really have is from seeing GP and discussing social anxiety. Other than that, nothing. :( I mentioned the eyebrow pulling at my previous surgery but they weren't too bothered, moved house since then and at a new surgery

There's a couple of things people font understand with me either:

1. I CANNOT stand crumpled up used serviettes/tissues. Go out to restraunts and I have to walk round to find a table with none in view or I can't eat. Any in view I have to put condiments in the way to buck my view

1. I hate walking on wet grass, shoes it no shoes. We went to an outdoor cinema thing one evening and the rest got chairs our and blankets and sat down. But it had been raining and in long wet grass. I sat in the car

1. My grandparents are forever asking why I don't wear socks on my feet in the house. I try to but I can't stand the feel of them on the carpet so they soon come off

I think you should maybe look into how aspergers or sensory processing disorder presents in women and see if it fits.