My mum

[Theodoreb]

I get that my mum is going through a hard time right now cus my sister and her baby are in care and there is a chance they will take my sisters baby. But I have been there for my mum every step of the way.

Well I have bipolar 1 and schizophrenia and I have 3dc DS has ADHD DD1 has ASD and DD2 has suspected epilepsy. Last night was a bad day DS1 was having a major meltdown calling me everything under the sun and I just can't take anymore.

So I told my mum I felt suicidal which I do I have 100 morphine tablets upstairs in a safe which she knows and told her I felt suicidal and need a break and her reply was don't we all.

I feel heart broken part of the reason I ended up so bad was because she didn't support me when I was bad with my mental health and now I'm telling her I feel suicidal and all she can say is don't we all and then went on to give me a lecture about how I need to punish DS meltdowns more severely and then I wouldn't feel this way.

Are you in therapy for the schizophrenia and bipolar?

I've had therapy but now I see my psychiatrist once a month so we decided less agencies involved so that I could receive monthly appointments of my psychiatrist at a higher input level.

Hi Theodoreb,

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