I have always thought my head isn't quite right. I grew up in a fairly normal household except my relationship with my mother wasn't good. She had mental health problems and was often unkind to me. When I was a teenager I was quite reckless, would try most drugs and did a bit of self harm, crying a lot and feeling alone a lot of the time. Then it all settled down and I got on with life, I have a loving husband and two beautiful healthy children. Recently I have felt like I'm falling apart again, I've been thinking about hurting myself again, the only thing that stops me is that it would make my husband and children so sad. I had an appointment today that I found stressful and burst into tears. This is how I feel most of the time but manage to hide it well. I also have taken on a new role at work and feel so out of my depth, even though my logical head says I can definitely do it. I feel like running away and hiding. I don't know what to do. Should I visit the GP? I don't want to waste their time. Am I depressed? Suffering with anxiety?