I feel so anxious all the time. My panic attacks won’t stop. My DM had major, invasive, long brain surgery back in September to remove a tumour (well four months later they still have no idea if it was a tumour or not).
Medication does fuck all. They keep changing my therapists so I find it hard to talk to them. I’m so scared. I can’t sleep anymore because I can’t stop worrying about things going wrong again.
For a while now (since October) I’ve had nightmares about DM dying, I can’t loose my mum I need her. We’re seeing the consultant again in a few days as to whether anything has grown back, I’m terrified. What if they missed something? What if the cancer is back? I don’t know how I’ll cope again, last time it was bad enough to cope but my MH has just gotten worse and worse.
I can’t go on like this anymore. People say this is supposed to be the happiest time of my life as I’m still young, but I can’t stop worrying about everything and I just don’t know how to cope with this all anymore 