BPD and meds

[BernadetteThreep]

Everything has been going great, so in my infinite wisdom, decided I'd stop taking my meds.

Really beginning to regret it, small things are starting to feel overwhelming. I've mustered up the courage to call the surgery and I'm booked to see the MH nurse next Thursday (she's currently on leave).

I'm on aripiprazole and citalopram with diazepam PRN.

I have enough meds to "start again" in the morning to see me through to Thursday.

Fed up of feeling like my MH always beating me in the end.

Definitely start again.
I take Aripiprazole 25mg. Even a late dose can make me feel strange.

And in the past I took citalopram & stopped it suddenly which was a bad mistake as I was quite ill.

Take the meds again until you see the nurse & get some advice from her.

To be fair sometimes I look at the Aripiprazole & think why am I bothering but it's keeping me from having even more psychotic symptoms & delusions I realise.
It's just that when I feel well I forget.

Very true, when I'm pretty sure I stopped because I was feeling better. But now realising I'm feeling better because I'm taking them.

OH has gone away for work and DS is back at school, being left on my own I'm beginning to feel overwhelmed by "stuff" - just normal stuff.

I've noticed I'm quite paranoid too, questioning my behaviour and thought just incase, keep second guessing myself.