Feel lost

[CagedBirdwithoutAKey]

I'm a long-term sufferer of GAD, and take 40mg Citalopram daily, and had an unsuccessful course of CBT many years ago (just didn't work for me). Over the pst few months, I've been feeling so lonely, like a loneliness I can't describe (I'm a single mum of more than 1 DC)...also, name-changed for this post.

Had a huge fallout with parents over Xmas, as they were basically taking my DS's side on something (she caused a LOT of trouble for the whole family not so long back) and I self-harmed But I had been drinking (1st drink in a long time) and now my parents don't want to know me

My DM is angry at the fact that I'm going through a pretty low time My word, if I could control this I obviously would!

I feel like my anxiety is crippling me right now and am worried, as I've never felt this bad before

Guess I'm just here for support, please don't be mean, I feel so fragile

Your family sound toxic and unsupportive.

I would consider going LC or NC with them.
Just because they are family spent mean you must see them, especially if they are bad for your MH.

Do you have a supportive partner or friends who can help you through this situation?

You may want to research about Complex PTSD, which is ongoing trauma through childhood.
There is a book called: from Surviving to Thriving Complex PTSD.

Richard Grannon is good to watch on YouTube about the subject.

I hope you can get lots of support from friends.