What is wrong with me ?

[anotherday4]

I know there's something now right, I feel anxious all the time constant fear something bad is going to happen I hardly ever enjoy things. I've lost my sex drive completely to the point my partner is going to leave me soon through lack of intimacy!

I stuggle to cope with things like I loose my temper very quick I cry I beat myself up like I'm not a good mum and I'm a terrible person. I worry my kids will get poorly I worry I will get poorly I literally would rather not have to leave the house, but there's some days when I want to get out it's so confusing I'm in a word place and I can't pinpoint what. My life's feels to go so fast but the days so slow. Sorry I'm rambling on I'm just not in the right frame of mind and I need to vent

Thanks to whoever got this far

Weird*

Sorry you are feeling this way. I have been there and it does pass.

Have you been to see your gp? Mine was amazing.

Also counselling really helped, someone to listen while I poured out my irrational fears. It saved me.

Thankyou yes it's been a long time I've felt like this tbh, there loads more but I don't want to go into it just feel like I'm constantly worrying and anxious it's awful

Please see your doctor asap.
I totally understand how miserable you are.You are existing,not living right?
Well you deserve to be happy.I also know the mental energy it takes just to think about seeing a dr can be overwhelming,but you are worth it. For yourself and your family❤

How old are you OP? All sounds a bit peri-menopausal although maybe you’re far too young for that.

@Mymomsbetterthanyomom Thankyou the thought of going to my doctors scares me!
I love my kids more then life itself I did everything I can but I always struggle to cope with minor things and it gets me in a fluster.
I want to feel normal again

Talk to your GP.

Feelings of anxiety can be related to physical problems as well as mental ones (or life circumstances). It might be worth ruling out things like iron or B12 deficiency or thyroid problems, among others. (You haven't stopped breastfeeding recently, have you?)

I am in my 30s

Tbh I think it's untreated PND but I have ocd anxiety which makes day to day hard

I still get up and do things because I worry to much but I'm also so exhausted

Please don’t be scared about going to your gp at all. It can only help.

This is much more common than you think.

It will be okay, you just need a little help to get through this.

And you deserve to feel not only normal again but to thrive😊

The guilt I feel over things is awful too

Your comments are lovely I'd love to thrive again don't think I've felt that since my teens

Anotherday, I could have written your post. I feel like I am slowly losing my mind. I worry over my childrens health, I worry over mine and dh's health. I get the time thing too, I feel like life is just passing by. I am isolated. I feel like I could drop down and people would just step over me unseen, I have tried reaching out and I think there is some cbt in the pipeline. I have been prescribed sleeping tablets and anti-depressants. But I am also at the age where I could well be peri-menopausal (had a blood test for this yesterday). I seriously don't know what is happening and all there was, was this call from the mental health trust...a voice at the end of the phone, nice but processing me. I have virtually no extended family and friends just seem to be getting on with their own lives and leaving me to my own insanity.

Atrocious - what makes this sound like peri-menopause - have you had experience of this?

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