We moved away from home in June which was 180 miles away, we moved again in October, we're currently an hour train from our family , I only have my mum & sister.
We have a 2yo and a 10mo. DP works away 4 days awake & is home 4 days. But he works shifts so I only get about an hour or so a day to speak to him. I don't know any body here & I'm trying to make friends through mum apps. I do suffer with quite bad anxiety so i have to dose up on tablets prior to meeting anyone ( I haven't met any one as of yet).
So I never speak to any other adults other then my DP when he's home and the odd call the my mum.
DC have been really bad the past few weeks DS is going through terrible twos and is a constant handful and he makes it hard to go out, he can be really lovely but about 45% of the time he doesn't take no for an answer.
DD is a crier, she never stops, never lets me put her down nor does she sleep.
They both start at the same time and I just don't know how to cope with them. He doesn't go to nursery yet.
I don't get a break, I know I chose to have kids and I really do adore them and I know it won't last for ever. I'm probably having such a bad day but iv never been so lonely, I don't even have any friends whatsoever. I'm only 21.