Bipolar 1 with schizophrenia New here.

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Just introducing myself I was first diagnosed with bipolar 1 when I was 22 10 years ago. When I was 26 6 years ago schizophrenia was added to my diagnosis. Had my medication significantly increased I now take olanzapine 20mg diazepam 5mg diazepam 2mg clonazepam 0.5mg zopiclone prn 4 7.5mg a week 100mg lamotrogene and 15mg mirtazapine.

It works for me and I am quite high functioning don’t get me wrong have some very bad days but I always get through it sooner or later. Right now my bipolar sYmptoms are in remission but schizophrenia is active but I’m coping well and have a appointment with psychiatrist this month.

So anyway that’s me hi everyone.

Hi!
CPSTD here with emotional dysregulation
Meds 375mg Venlafaxine
5mg diazepam
500mg Quetiapine

Hi grumpbum lovely to meet you.

I have had loads of diagnosis, the latest is schitzoaffective. I take lithium, lamotrigine, lurasidone, sertraline and mirtzapine. Depression is my main problem at the moment.

Banksku19 do you have bipolar type schizoaffective disorder or unipolar schizoaffective disorder? I always suffered with highs a lot more than downs but downs are rough. Hope it gets better for you soon do you have a sad box by any chance?

At the minute I feel very unemotional which is part of my schizophrenia people get a little frightened of it tbh not sure why though.

I have bipolar type. Depressions during winter and I get high around April-May. This despite my medication. I have sad light but I haven't noticed anything.

Let’s hope your mood stabilizes soon it’s horrid being depressed all winter.

Hi, I have schizoaffective disorder (mixed type) & epilepsy.

As well as anti epileptics I take 25mg Aripiprazole & 337.5mg Venlafaxine MR.

My current problem is audible hallucinations when I'm stressed and/or tired.
I work part time as an HCA but even this can get tiring & stressful.
Unfortunately I've recently had some symptoms at work obviously my colleagues are unaware luckily. In fact they'd be quite shocked if they knew as they just think I have a bit of depression.

I feel quite depressed & lonely this weekend although I should hopefully be meeting a friend soon for gym & going to a hen party next weekend.

@LilyJade audible voices are really hard, my family are often amazed that I can continue to function with them. Depression sucks do you find going out nice places helps? Hopefully you’ll have loads of fun at the hen party next weekend, I always find music helps me greatly especially if I’m depressed or having audio hallucinations does if help you? Surprised there are 3 of us with schizophrenic based illnesses, making me feel less alone.

Music does help when I feel depressed especially trance music which is really uplifting.

The audible hallucinations are difficult to explain but when I talk sometimes I hear my voice sound as if it was one of my friends or colleagues voices but coming out of my mouth. To the person hearing me talk I sound normal. It's very strange & makes me not want to talk when I'm tired.

I've also had a few visual hallucinations.

I also get quite paranoid about what others think about me.

I find paranoia by far my worst symptom as most of the time I’m extremely frightened with the paranoia and my fears are very real to me but I’m too paranoid to be able to trust someone enough to talk about what’s making me paranoid so I kind of end up suffering alone and there’s nothing anyone can do to help.

Can I ask when psychotic am I the only one who dislikes being touched?

I dislike paranoia too. I tend to keep things to myself but my behaviour towards others reveals that I am not ok.

@Bansku19 yea people pick up on my paranoia too can make people who don’t know me well
Anxious and frightened I don’t mean to though.

I feel paranoid that I smell bad and other people can notice it but I can't. The paranoia is worse as I'm struggling to get in the shower & clean my teeth at times.
It all seems like a really big effort.
I do it for work though even though I often make myself late.

I also feel paranoid that my psychiatrist is lying to me about my illness & that he really thinks I have Bpd (I was misdiagnosed with it years ago). He he doesn't think that but he would say that.

I feel that everyone at work thinks I'm slow or stuck up and doesn't like me & are just friendly to my face.

Everywhere I go I feel people are watching me & bitching about me. It's exhausting.

I phoned the duty worker today & told her about the voices & the paranoia so she's getting my psychiatrist to phone me.

I also feel quite depressed and quite lonely still.

@LilyJade sounds like your really having a tough time psychosis is so hard to live with. I don’t think people realize just how exhausting it is to always be fighting with your own brain and to never have a single break.

I just had a mini breakdown was looking everywhere for the only knife in the house I will use (part of my coping mechanism is a strict routine and that also means I use the exact same things) and I looked everywhere and couldn’t find it started crying then picked up the other knife to peel potatoes and sat down and it was actually my knife all along I was just seeing a different knife cus of psychosis.

Sorry to hear about your problems too.

Tbh I only keep 2 small fairly blunt knives in the house as I know I would harm myself with sharper ones. I feel safe with the two I have.

I understand sorry if I triggered you

No you didn't it's fine