Not sure what I need to do to feel better

[Amycol23]

Hello
I lost 4 stone in weight 3 years ago. Felt absolutely brilliant about myself. Fell pregnant and had my amazing daughter in June 2018.
Since then I have nearly put all the weight back on that I lost.
Laziness and bad diet being the obvious reasons.
But I dont feel like myself at all. Even at my biggest I was so confident and full of life.

I cant stand to be touched now, cant stand to look at myself in the mirror, hate going out and seeing people, want to sleep all the time, feel dizzy and weak most the time. Hate to think of anyone even looking in my direction.
The worst thing is that I am an awful mum to my daughter. She is so full of energy and I just sit on the sofa or the floor with her. Iused to walk alot with her and play but now I hate myself so much that I just stay in. She must be so bored of spending time with me.

I hate myself and who I am and hate that I am moaning about it and not just cracking on and losing weight like I did before.

It is ruining my relationships with friends and family and my husband is being so supportive but soon he will lose interest in wanting to try.

Anyone else felt the same?

I think it's because last time you felt success and then confident but now you are beating yourself up about putting the weight back and feel you've failed and unconfident.
But when you look at it in context, you only had your daughter last June, following a pregnancy weight is much harder to lose. You are being really hard on yourself. Maybe if you think about it differently .. I am struggling with my weight right now and it's making me feel tired and low, but with a little baby to look after and post pregnancy it's going to be a bit harder and take a bit longer and I'll need to treat myself a little bit more leniently etc

Maybe ask your GP for a thyroid test? It can make you feel down tired and listless if you have an underactive thyroid. Worth a thought.

Yes agree, and blood count and iron levels

Thank you. I agree....its going to be harder and take more time. I was so focused before but just cant seem to get into it again. We are always our own worst enemies.