Hi, I've got other post regarding my relationship with a partner suffering from depression. I can't support her (her decision) and our life together is uncertain (at least to me). The thing is I think I've had enough. Not of her, I love her, but of trying to deal with this. It's the uncertainty that's feels like a rock in my chest. I want out but feel guilt over my family and the aftermath. The thought of not being here makes me feel happier. It feels as if I have some control. I feel rational about this and have reached the point where it's less frightening and more and more attractive option to me. I wish I didn't have ties so I could just go. Does, has, anyone else feel like this?