Socialising when depressed

[passthebucky]

Going to the iinlaws tomorrow to stay the night. I've known about this for months yet I'm feeling so anxious tonight. I really really don't want to go to the point I'm welling up writing this post

I'm exhausted and would rather spend the day on bed catching up on weeks of broken sleep. But I must go I must make the effort for the kids.
To make things worse I've come on my period today after months of not seeing a thing and it's back with a vengeance and feels like I'm being stabbed in the belly over and over and I'm really heavy, so the last thing I want to do is travel the hours journey, put on a fake smile and laugh and pretend I'm enjoying it when I'm not. Then have to sleep in their bed (which I really hate when I'm on because I worry about leaking on their sheets)
I just want to sit in my pjs all day eating junk and sleeping. It's just one day that's been planned for months why can't I just be normal

@passthebucky
Do you have to go? Can DH take the children and go?

Periods are so draining and I get your concerns about leaking in their bed.

If you do go take any supplies to get you through, paracetamol, chocolates, comfy clothes and a towel or rug to put down in the bed.

I hope things work out for you, and you are normal.

@lexiepuppy I could but I would feel awful. Dfil is so good to us and helps us out a lot, he's also had a crap Xmas with his inlaws. We only stay over one night a year and he looks forward to it so much. He gets up with the kids and lets us have a lay in, I'll just have to suck it up for one day. Woke up so tired today and can barely keep my eyes open

I hope things work out for you, and you are normal.

And thank you

@passthebucky same here, we’re off to the in laws for 2 nights. I’m dreading the energy it takes to be social for hours on end, I don’t know if I can do it. Cried myself to sleep last night. I’m planning on going off to my bedroom when I need some time, can you do the same? Thinking of you

Yes I think that's what I'll have to do @Star8181 I know I won't last if not.
I'm sat here not even dressed yet or got the kids ready I just haven't got the energy to get up and do it. Need to shower and pack the case too we're suppose to be leaving at 12

Posted too soon.
@Star8181 hope all goes well with you. I hate Xmas time because of the socialising I just want to be on my own. I love my own company too much

Can your OH help with packing? The pressure to be sociable at Christmas is hard work when you are not feeling your best. I hope you manage to get a bit of rest while you are there, keep telling yourself it’s just one night.