I feel so low right now. I haven't felt like myself for about a month, uncontrollable sadness and insecurity. It's happened a few times this year and I don't know what the trigger is. I had PTSD 12 years ago but I've been really okay in the last 4-5 years.
In an on off long distance relationship, and I've spent the last month feeling very insecure/picking arguments. We spent Christmas apart, I tried to tell him how I felt on xmas eve but he's either not interested or didn't understand. We haven't really spoken in a few days.
I feel like pushing the relationship away, but I will feel differently when I'm up again. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to be here at all, which I haven't told anyone.
I'm not really sure what is happening to me at the moment. I know this post makes no sense, I just feel so alone.