Sobbing angry mess, help me!

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I'm not sure if I'm posting in the right place so apologies if I'm in the wrong place. I'm not sure what to do, I've just been watching the 3DC (two teens, one 3yo) make gingerbread and burst into tears. Its not the first time I've broken down, its been happening for months. Everything is fine at home, I'm a SAHM and DH does his share. DD3 goes to preschool 3 mornings a week and, apart from the weekly shop, this is the only time I will leave the house. I just dont want to go out, not even to take DD to the park. I dont even visit my best friend and she lives next door. I've no energy (would sleep all day if I could) and I'm SO short tempered, especially with the youngest. Then I naturally feel guilty, then i cry and it's like a never ending loop. Everyday is like this. I feel awful as DD3 is missing out on park/outside time, but I just cant motivate myself to take her. It doesn't help that DD14 is constantly being horrid to DD3, which makes DD3 cry. Then I get short tempered. Then cry. I dont know what to do to make it all stop. I feel like such a failure to my DC. I want to be the mum they deserve, the happy energetic fun mum I used to be. Not the sobbing angry mess they have now. I don't want to feel like this anymore. Thankfully we're having Christmas at home so I don't have to pretend all is well in front if the PIL/SIL. Any advice/suggestions would be very much appreciated.

Sorry you are feeling like this. It could be some kind of depression or maybe a deficiency of some sort or hormone imbalance. I would make an appointment with your gp ❤️☺️.

Sorry you’re feeling like that OP.

The fact you are reaching out to others is good. You don’t want to be like this any more and want to change it and get better and back to yourself again.

Defo make a doctors appointment. Something is probably out of kilter like your serotonin levels or something else that you could get tablets for. You’re not pregnant without realising it are you? That can knock the stuffing out of you!

How has this tiredness come about? Have you been stressed at a low level for years, eg continual broken sleep, rushing round organising things, possibly combined with working in the past, worries about money or family members health? Moving house, changing job etc can be stressful. Sometimes life just wears you out.

If things have been getting on top of you perhaps counselling would help. Your doctor will have local info.

If you are still tired after three months and all tests are negative for any other conditions I think the NICE guidelines say you should be diagnosed with chronic fatigue.

Hope you get sorted out OP and feel better soon.

Could it be the peri menopause?

Don't fret- you've probably got some kind of deficiency- low iron, or thyroid, bit D etc. Easily sorted out, once the GP does the blood tests to find out what it is.

It's the middle of a long dark winter, you'll be tired from all the running about after the children and stress about Christmas. Give yourself a bit of a break- you'll be ok!

Thanks for your replies. I will make an appointment tomorrow, the sooner the better (for the DC) @Elieza definitely not pregnant! As for being stressed, I've a DS16 and DD14 (so the hormones are aplenty!) So that's probably adding to the stress. But I've been so, so tired for as long as u can remember! @bionicnemonic i hadnt thought about that
At least I didnt burn the gingerbread men, one less thing go cry about!! Heres hoping my GP can sort me out, and I'll be fun mum once more! Wishing you all a Merry Christmas

I went feeling like you- my Vit D was very low, iron low, thyroid low. Sometimes we need tweaking!