Hi!
I've suffered all my life with anxiety from what I remember but it was always general anxiety, example worrying in primary school if I was going to be late for school because everyone will look and talk about me. Nothing was ever this serious & bad as I am now!
When I was 19 (I'm 30 now) I got a admin job in a cancer hospital! I was fine for ages n then one day it hit me worrying about myself and loved ones getting cancer!
This just got worse n worse & I eventually left my job but I was working there for around 7 years in total!
I'm now married with two children & my health anxiety is at an all time high!!!! It's ruining my life!!!
Everyday I'm worrying over something new!! I prod & poke my skin that much that I bruise myself!!! Right now under my armpit is bruised , swollen, & very sore because I've poked it that much checking for lumps that aren't there! I think I've now made a little lymph node swell in armpit ive touched it that much!!
My anxiety is that bad right now I'm sweating all the time, even more at night! Which is then making me worry that it's something more serious!
I was in A&E two nights ago because I was breathing funny , then did my bloods and all ok!
Sorry for LONG essay but does anyone have any advice????
I've seen councillors in past & they never seem to make any difference!! I've never been on medication as I really don't want to start taking anything! I'm trying to mentally sort this myself! Please help😀