Scared I am going to hurt myself.

[Pinkbutterfly79]

I suffered with anxiety in my teens and hurt myself regularly. Nothing too serious just scratching, cutting, punching walls . It was never an attempt to end my life or violence towards anyone else it just felt like a release.
I am suffering with some unexplained health problems at the moment which coupled with going through a really bad patch with Dp has made me want to hurt myself, the last time I did was 12 years ago and before that was 19 years ago when I was 17. I am feeling much worse than I ever have before and just don’t know how to cope with it.

HI OP,

How are you feeling now?

Do you journal?

Do you have any real life support you can lean on?

For the in moment feeling-I used to use ice cubes as they provided that same distraction but left no real marks.

Have you spoken to your GP about your feelings?

I don’t write a journal, I did when I was struggling years ago but the thoughts inside my head seemed so much worse when written down and I couldn’t deal with it.

I have a friend who is very supportive but I don’t want to tell her about these feelings.

I haven’t told the Gp but am due to make an appointment tomorrow

If I had a friend who was struggling I'd want to be there for them. Sometimes with people we can tell with other's it's more hidden, but we can't help if we don't know.I hope you can open up to your friend when you're ready.