To feel too anxious to call the crisis team

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Not really an AIBU but posting here for traffic.

I'm feeling really low. I was hospitalised for a suicide attempt 6 weeks ago. Referred to the community mental health team and I now have the number for the crisis team to call if I feel like doing it again. Well I do, and I know I don't want to. I'm still reeling from the trauma of the hospital last time. It's like an intrusive thought that won't go away.

Can anyone tell me what happens when you call the crisis team? I know I need support but I can't handle the idea of a group of people turning up to my house when I'm in this state (and the house is in this state). All I want is for the thoughts to stop so I can get some sleep. I just can't bring myself to pick up the phone, there's too much uncertainty and what can they even do or say to make the situation better?

Yeah I'm alone in my flat just now.

I just want to sleep. I don't know how to explain that to a CPN on the phone because if I want to sleep why am I phoning them instead of just going to sleep? I feel like I've been here so many times before and I know all the advice and all of what I should do. yet I'm still back here again

OP I have PM’d you xx

I sat with a friend recently,the Crisis team were called around midnight and they came around 5am,two of them,that night they were the only ones on call,covering half of the County I live in,a huge rural area.

Please do call them and they won’t care a kipper about your house.Dont suffer alone.

I'm sorry you are feeling so low.
You deserve to feel better.

I've only had experience with the CPMH team once, when my son (then 15) was expressing a will to commit suicide.

That wasn't just "I feel like I might as well be dead". It was "I have made a plan to end my life." Important distinction for the emergency services.

My son indicated he had made plans. The NHS despatched an ambulance, at which point DS ran out of the house and jumped over several fences of neighbours. WE saw a psychiatrist the next day and again he ran away out of the appointment. He had huge anxiety about "being sent to the looney bin" or "being taken by the men in white coats" which was mainly ingrained by his birth parents. (Cunts.)

OP I know inpatient psych is not a happy time but do you feel there was any improvement on your state from intake to out?

Can you write it down op? Hope you are ok. A few hours and at least it'll be light again
Nights can long in winter

I really don't want them to come to my house. The thought of it just takes me back to that feeling of exposure and vulnerability I had in the hospital

You can meet them other than at home

Can i just recommend an online web chat called Elefriends run by Mind I like this it is online

You can go to see them rather than have them come to you. I've accessed their service by turning up at my local A&E and asking to be seen before. I was put in a quiet waiting room away from other people and given some food/drink. I had to wait a while as they do spend a lot of time with each person but I found it easier to cope with there than at home.

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How are you this morning OP? Did you manage to get sone sleep?

I phoned them. They booked me a phone appointment for 6 weeks time. They wont come out unless you are imminently going to kill yourself.

Who did you phone? what did you say? are you the OP?

I'm not the OP. Just letting her know that they don't tend to overreact, if anything they under react.

Did you call them?
In my experience they were really helpful.
I’ve been under them more a few times, feel free to pm / post on here if you have any specific questions or just want to chat.
It’s hard when you’re that low and you can’t always think straight. At time’s I felt like I didn’t warrant the help and sometimes I felt it was an over reaction. However, when I’m ok (which I am now) I can see very clearly that it was warranted.
They phoned every day and visited every day for up to 6 weeks at a time (I have bipolar on top of some other stuff). They’re only a crisis service so stop as soon as you’re out of crisis, which may be a day, a few days or a few weeks. They usually visit in pairs so don’t be surprised as I was the first time.
They’ll want to talk over your suicide attempt, whether you still have thoughts or even plans and whether you have any intent to act in those plans.
You’re also free to call them at any time. They might ask you to visit them if they can’t get to you. They can also assess you a little longer if this happens, don’t be scared as it’s all about keeping you safe.
I really hope you start feel better soon, it’s a horrible place to be in.