I can't stand this all consuming worry anymore, my crazy thoughts and Google searches are getting out of hand but I’m not actually sure what to do or where to go for help.
I can’t stop thinking that my son is going to get seriously ill, every single thing makes me worry to the point that I can’t even think about our future as part of me thinks we won’t have a future. It’s honestly ruining my life and I don’t know how to fix it.
I know that most answers will be to speak to my GP but that is also another issue, I have issues with GP’s, I never trust them and hate talking to them, every time I have been to the GP in the past few years it has resulted in me arguing with them, asking for a second opinion or storming out of their office.
I’m not even sure where my anxiety stems from, I have never been ill, I have never witnessed any close friends or family suffering an illness and my two children are healthy and happy (I hope)
I used to be the most laid back person then I unexpectedly got pregnant with DS1 and after a very easy pregnancy I had a horrible birth but we were both fine after a few days, however my anxiety started a short time after he was born but I learnt to live with it and things got a bit better after about a year. Then I got pregnant again and since having DS2 my anxiety has come back with a vengeance. The things I think about on a daily basis often stop me in my tracks and it takes all my energy to stop obsessing over them.
Today has been particularly bad as my DS is sick and has been diagnosed with a chest infection but I just can’t handle illness and I am so scared it’s something more...
Has anyone been through anything like this and found effective ways of dealing with it?