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Mental health

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Really struggling

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user1471481764 · 11/12/2019 12:54

Just been for blood tests for my hospital appointment tomorrow. Haven’t slept in weeks and weeks, I’m terrified every time the phone rings, I’ve had a virus for weeks and I’m convinced I’m about to die. I’m so scared of leaving my little boy. I realised last night that I don’t think I’ve felt happy doing anything for months - always in the back of my head is that it will all be over soon and my little boy will be motherless. I’m just so sad all the time and can’t imagine ever feeling ok again - I just want to feel normal and not scared 😢

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RhubarbTea · 11/12/2019 13:19

I'm so sorry things are hard at the moment, it sounds as though you are really anxious. Have you got any support for MH side of things, like friends, counsellor or GP you could chat to?
I suffer from anxiety, it's horrendous at times an other times barely there. The things I have found help are: cutting down massively on sugar and caffeine, and also cutting out gluten completely. When I have gluten I turn into a different person and the anxiety spirals out of control. Without it I feel calm and happy. Worth a try.
I'm sending you a hug as well. I hope things get easier. Being poorly is always hard and it can exacerbate other things so it feels like your dealing with everything at once. Well done for reaching out on here.

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user1471481764 · 11/12/2019 13:32

I could go and see the gp, but I just think they’ll say I am dying so it’s not actual anxiety. I’ve always been anxious but feel different this time - husband said I need to ask for help because he doesn’t know what to say anymore. I’m so tired and sad.

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RhubarbTea · 11/12/2019 22:51

Oh love. I'd really urge you to seek some help via the GP, whatever the outcome it means you can get support which will help you and also your extended family so win win.

sugarplumtum · 11/12/2019 23:17

Being scared of dying is an anxiety. It's one of the worse it's why people have OCD and other issues.
I messed up my late teens and early twenties thinking like this. Thankfully it went away but still now at time I have this over whelming fear which grips me.
Get some help, otherwise your be forever trapped in your head.

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