I just don't feel right!!!

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I'm not sure if this is anything but I just don't feel right. I don't feel sad or anything just completely detached from life like I'm living in a bubble. I'm also forgetting everything even forgot my son had gone home with a friend and went to pick him up from an after school club. I replied completely random stuff to a message my friend said and keep being asked if I'm ok at work because I keep going distant. I feel like I wish I could just sleep for a week and not do anything but it's never going to happen.

For a bit of back story this year has been a tough year I found out my ex had been abusing my children and had to go through all of what comes with that, trying to look after 3 children on my own one with ASD and work in a special school where I get regularly attacked and studying for a qualification. I just feel like I never get a moment to just sit or think. I know I'm not the only one with difficulties but I just can't seem to juggle it all and I'm getting more and more blank and it's scaring me.

I don't know what I want from this post but thanks for letting me vent.

You are having to handle many difficult things over a long period of time, and you are tired & stressed. I hope you get a break soon.
Let your doctor know what’s going on.

Thank you for your reply. I think your right it's all just catching up with me. I'm not sleeping well as I wake up worrying about work and other things. Its the forgetfulness that worries me it's like everything is just getting scrambled up.

I did go to the drs a few months ago about feeling blank and they offered me sertraline but I really don't want to take anything especially as ok I've heard it can make things worse first and I just can't deal with that.

Oh that's a massive amount for anyone to deal with. No wonder you've reach saturation point. Christmas looming doesn't help either. Sertraline I read is more effective for anxiety than depression so perhaps you could try an alternative?

Really hoping you pick up soon

Thank you I just have a fear if going on any sort of antidepressants or the like I have no help with the kids so if they have bad side affects I need to be able to cope. I haven't even started on Christmas yet I need to start buying presents but my money just goes on bills. Urgh now I'm just whinging sorry.

What you're describing sounds like dissociation to me, I've experienced it myself at times.

Go to your gp and get the support you need. Most antidepressants don't have major side effects for most people plus you'd likely be started on a low dose anyway.

They can be really helpful.

You've been through and are going through a lot, if you were ill with gallstones or a broken bone you'd not hesitate to get help this is no different.