Any positive stories?

[ann12]

Hallo

I was wondering if anyone had any positive stories about having anxiety for a long time and getting over it? I go all up and down, and sometimes go for weeks all calm, and then start freaking out again, and have been in CBT therapy for 6 months, but not sure if it's really doing me any good as I've just moved house and totally lost the plot again. And sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get over this and sometimes it's hard to be positive about the future, and I think I'm going to be battling this forever. And it's exhausting and demoralising.

So I was wondering if anyone had managed to get over it all, to give me some inspiration? That would be lovely.

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[PinkyRed]

I have apparently added a link there. I didn't mean to. Sorry. I find computers and other modern contrivances quite confusing.

[ann12]

hi pinky, how lovely to hear that. were you ill for a while? and did you go up and down and have times when you thought you'd never get better?

[PinkyRed]

I've had about three bouts of serious depression/anxiety and lots of other incidents in between. I was bulimic and I self harmed for about 7 or 8 years. My first big depression was when I was about 15, my last was when I was 30.

And YES in the biggest font available- I went up and down, I thought I'd cracked it one day only to collapse sobbing in a heap in a newsagents because I couldn't decide whether or not to buy a can of coke the next day. A day of talking through issues with my dp (now my dh) and really feeling like we'd connected would be followed by a day when it felt like I was miles away inside myself and I'd have to drag myself up through miles and miles of caverns just to say hello. All totally, completely normal in my un-normal context.

[ann12]

God, I know that whole connecting thing, then feeling like you're in totally different worlds. What made you all better do you think?