cant sleep properly, feel like i am in a black hole and cannot stop crying

[whatsgoingonnow]

ive name changed for this as embarrassed how bad i am.

since the split with my dh and since realising he is with someone else and that i still love him, i have been in this black hole. i have stopped talking to friends, stopped sleeping properly and just sob and sob all the time til i get constant headaches.
i cant believe i let him go - it was my idea to split and now he is with someone else.
i will never get over this, is know it.

i just dont know what to do to move on and feel better.

have already done the yo-yo moods over the past 3 days, now feel more even headed.
but still feel very very sad and i dont think that will ever go away.

i do have lots of stuff to do, i study and i work part time so im not sitting round being bored.

i just know things wont get any better, i will just stop feeling suicidal, thats all.

i beg to differ agbu - you sound like a fantastic person, i know that seems patronising but you are in hell just now but i have noticed you still taking time to talk to other people who feel like shit.

What are you studying? I know that can be tough, but so very worth it.

agbu - things will get better, believe me. You will change.

thanks everyone for being nice to me.

lets face it agbu, we are all for one reason or another, in a similar place just now. I think this is fantastic support network and i think i may have gone under without it, so its nice to be nice when we can, i just hope it helps.